hmm...

i'm missing someone terribly...
maybe i shouldn't...
maybe i should....
maybe i have no right no miss the person....
maybe it's my birth right...
who knows really?
i want to scream out to this person...
tell the person everything that's on the tip of my tongue...
but i'm too afraid...
too afraid to not be heard...
i'm tired...
i want to move on...
but it's so hard to walk away...
everytime i try...
i somehow walk back to the person...
and all i thought we shared....
it's stupid...
isn't it?
no...
you know what?
it's not...
why do you this to me?
why do i let you?
i'm rising above...
or at least i'm trying to...
i hate you....
(that's a lie)
i can't hate you..

i don't know what i'm doing with you anymore...
maybe i never did...
i just liked knowing you were there...
maybe that's the biggest mistake i've ever made...
maybe it's the best...

screw it....
this is sounding like a love poem or something...
totally not...
maybe that's my problem...
i can't help associating our friendship..... with love...
maybe that's why this has to happen...
maybe this is really all there is...
maybe...